**FOUND** LOST VOICE

Over the past month or so, I have been feeling like I am losing my voice. If you know me even a little you know that my voice can be pretty overwhelming. Whether you hear it through words or light. But yeah I haven't written or journal in like a week. I browse FB and IG, get inspired but I can't express the vast amount of thoughts I am seeing in my head on the screen or paper. It is an unsettling that is kinda settling.Just recently I made a comment to someone that I desired to not talk, I just wanted to be silent. I don't know if I should be anticipating hearing or receiving the secret of life, if I just need to be still for myself for just a moment, Or if I am simply just losing my voice, my spirit, my essence, my alignment, and with that the simple desire to just not talk. I feel stuck between two dimensions. One that has a hold on me because of the warmest feelings of love, unity, happiness, and hope. And the other where all of that exist times ten thousand plus abundance, peace, wholeness, spirit filled joy and most of unlimited possibilities. I remember when I started this blog, it was the hangover effect of hitting rock bottom, yet again! So climbing back on my feet, I thought it would have been a good idea to share my journey and the happy ending of me succeeding at all I wrote about. My journey would be an inspirational example to others that they could also be victorious. It was brilliant, except I failed- I came down from the high, feel back into life and have since hit even more rock bottoms. I have been struggling to write books, yes books. What started as inspiration for one book is now probably about four books, or at least one freaking amazing collaboration of all my ideas. I just couldn't find the concentration I needed to get started. I would note an idea or chapter or subject that would come to me, but that's just a lot of notes on my notepad- I did nothing with them. So last week I am cleaning out emails I find this link to this blog I created almost nine years ago, and the pieces started to fall in place with a very clear map of what my next step was going to be. And the first part is re-introducing my blog to the world. Maybe the books will happen in the future, but the fact that I was not doing anything because I was trying to structure it based on what I saw others do and how it worked for them. It was creatively frustrating. I could not even express or write what I am here to share with the world, but yet the words and ideas where still flowing in my head and heart, and yet I could not/did not move. So here I am blogging again. Looks like I am finding my voice again. Ready to write and share at will. However it comes, I will deliver it here. Yes, some of the stuff will not be comprehensible to everyone, but there will be something for everyone here because I promised the Universe. Feel free to dialog, dialog opens my receiving vibration, that is when I thrive, so yes all comments are welcomed. Welcome, and thank you for accompanying me on this journey!! Love and Blessings Mosetanola P.S. I will still be on FB and IG but maybe not posting too much. The juicy stuff will be here, need to laser focus my energy here because - This is It. Mark my words. #lovewillsavetheday #stillaworkinprogress

It's been a while..

Yes I know it has been a while since I last posted. Kinda hard to begin when so much time has passed, so many things have happened. But for some reason at this moment I feel a need to express- SO here it goes. Over the past few months I have been through what seems like a dozen or so lifetimes. Mentally and physically I am exhausted but I still strive for the next level. Right now at this moment I feel the need to either humble myself or disappear. For some reason I don't want to be seen or heard, I don't want to participate in anything or speak any words. I wish I could go into a shut down kinda of meditation and just go into myself to regroup. Weird because there are no real pressures in my life right now. My health has been pretty good- as long as I listen to my body. Family life is pleasantly "normal". Finances - well - it is what it is???? But overall my Libra Scales are close to balance - closer than they have been for a long time. I think I will listen to the Universe's conversation and just limit my movement, stay humble and try hard to pay attention. I think something is coming- not sure from what realm, but I think this is a preparation time and I am going to heed the warning and prepare for it mentally, spiritually and physically. Will post whether anything manifests or not. Until then lovewillsavetheday

Counting the Blessings

It has been a while since I last posted. but that does not mean that life has been less interesting. I am further understanding that life is to the least an interesting journey. Recognizing and living through the rough spots are just tests. Faith, endurance and strength are the key to survival. I am truly blessed, not just in a biblical way but in a human way. I know why my husband is in my life, and I know why a have mothered each and every one of my children. They all have given and contributed to who I am and who I am becoming as a human being. The friends that I have "claimed" and have "claimed" me have played more than an important role in my development and growth. There are even those that have crossed my path maybe without even knowing their names, that even for a split second have been a significant part of my being. - I am truly at this moment reflecting in my mind of the reasons these occurrences have happened, it is a universal blessing. I know that even though today is a "good day" that tomorrow may bring more and difficult challenges, but even for those I am grateful because I know of its meaning. Even before I complain and cry that things are not "fairytale" and going my way I will step back and ask - What is the meaning? What am I supposed to be learning from this? How will this hurtful, painful, experience bring me to yet the next level? Life is beautiful in its wonder - I think I am realizing that for the first time. I hope with faith that I can remember this moment and feeling of strength and understanding in my most weakest of moments. And I wish you find your happy place when you need it too! Lovewillsavetheday

Maybe it is all Worth Something....

I know more than anybody that sometimes life's spontaneous battles can make you wonder if its all worth it. I have more than once been in a never ending pondering state with just that question on my mind. Creation of a human life takes too much not to mean something, I think figuring out our purpose in life is where the confusion comes in. Please if there is anybody out there that knew there purpose early on and actually fulfilled it "the first time" - Please post and enlighten me :/. There are so many times life's slap in the face leaves such a sting, its near impossible to recover (I think I have more of my own hand prints on my face than that of anybody else's) Eventually we just need to know that it adds up to SOMETHING, the struggle, the drama, the pain, the humility - it has a reason and WILL take us to the next level or plateau, i hope.....I need that, I don't want to exist in THIS life and nobody remember my name (my biggest and most deepest fear) --- I push everyday for that not to manifest, taking one day at a time. So TODAY I have meaning, my existence has meaning, so I guess that makes today a happy face day :) - lets hope tomorrow brings the same and more. Lovewillsavetheday - Really it will

Goin Round and Round

I love the feeling of reminiscing. I think we all need to do it and often. Just close our eyes and go back to a time to a warm memory created, a lesson learned, or even a broken heart. The journey that we go on in this life is all but once, you may have Deja Vu a couple of hundred times if your lucky, but this lifetime is unique and there will not be another one like it ever again in creation. There are many things in my "younger life" that I miss and often think about, I try not to regret anything but to see my mistakes and my purpose for making them and to move forward. You know a shift in your existence is about to occur when you find yourself going round and round in memories of where you have come from and thoughts as to where you are headed. Reflection is occurring and you need to grasp what you see as a road map for your next move. You may in that moment feel your throat tighten and water well in your eyes as you hold them closed oh so tight, not wanting to let go of the connection you have made with the universe as it speaks to you. Sometimes you feel like this when you have been emotionally hurt in a relationship, or hit a dead end in your career, or just when things aren't going so great. I know from my own experience that reflections such as these are a key to the next level in life, you can either use it to open the door or you can put it around your neck until the next time. I haven't felt like ME for a long time. I think the key I hold in this reflection is the key back to ME (and I've been here before several times over the years), it is present now because all the other doors are locked (love, career, happiness) - Wait maybe not locked, maybe all just within ME.....

A-W-O-L for good reasons

Okay I've been AWOL for a few days. This first week of the new year so far has been a serious test of patience, and mental focus (which I believe is all in the same)
I did not realize this until maybe Wednesday, that things where out of control - What was happening was completely the Universe's call- And also by then I had also made some incorrect decisions, by not using my head and moving on emotions - but believe you me I snapped out of it quickly. Once decided that the universe was in control - I started to check my horoscope, and of course it was on point, which confirmed my theory. Once I aligned with the Universe and slowed down a little, I was able to put and keep things into prospective. Slowly but surely things calmed down (at least for now). I know this all sounds like a world-wind (and it was) especially with no details of incidents (the juicy stuff) - But all of that is in the past and I truly believe I learned its purpose, and why it was so chaotic, therefore it is no need to speak of it ever again - so there !!! I hope maybe you got something from this entry - I know I did- and that is to be inside my head can be very dangerous sometimes. Until next time- Always let love save the day................

P.S. Needless to say this whole week is :( faces at least until Friday - Today is a day of revelation so of course its a good one :) - What will tomorrow bring????????????

Day 4

Today is a smiley face day - not because anything good or not bad happened, just because I remember what my grandma used to say - "if you ain't got nuttin nice to say then don't say nuttin at all" - quoted from My Grandma Vi - So I am going to leave that thought to marinate in the minds of those of you are following. Oh and believe you me when its not so good of a day (clearly defined)- I will have plenty to say - Sorry Grandma.....